Bitching out - If MADONNA says so....

NOTE: To be readed after Bitching out-"The year of the fall"

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Last year I learned a new word REINVENTION. MADONNA decided to name her latest world tour (a sor of tribute to her own career) like that and I found it a little obvious becasuse, if we think about her carrer in the last twenty years, she´s been doing nothing but REINVENTING HERSELF all the time. And it seems to be a working ´cause, besides you like her or not, nobody is able to discuss the fact that she is still at the mountain top. Like she says in one of her lyrics...

REINVENTION a whole new concept to me...

When my ilness started in the early days of may 2004, all that I had learned untill then just
blowed up on my face... but I was still breathing, and, tagically for me, the world was still
spining and the sun was still comin up every morning... so I finally had to REINVENT MYSELF.

I ´ve been forced to adapt my mind, my soul, my thoughts, my LIFE to this new "condition", I´ve been forced to adopt this new WAY OF LIFE I´m living with... but, instead of changing every single dream, every thougth or plan... I Just REINVENTED THEM.

I found myself facing facts like " Ian, you are an actor.. this is what you do, but now you can´t
control your body" or "I´m sorry Ian, but it seems you are not able to sing again in a long
time, this condition affected your voice and soon it will be hard to speak clearly" or "dancing?? are you not listening to me? thank god if you don´t end in a wheelchair!"...And I discovered that unconciously, I was searching new posibilities, new ways of expression..
that´s how my novel had born.

Writting... that was my first time scape, my way of filling my needs of expression... I found a
new creative space where to calm down my urges of making something priductive and, at the same time, joyfull in my life.

Then, I translate this new feeling to all dif´rent aspects of my existence: I just hold on to all
positive issues I could find, even though they were hard to reach.
And here I am.

I think the answer is to accept every obstacle, being smart enough to face them without avoid them, REINVENTNG OURSELVES to reach the way to jump and keep running.
This is not about faith, magic or special powers. As I said in one of my comments I AM NOT A SUPERHERO. And I´m not writting this especting cheers an congrats for what i´ve done, this is just to show you all that ITS POSSIBLE. I´M UST A REGULAR GUY AND I COULD MAKE IT. of course this is not over yet. and it´s harder everyday... but as I told Anonimous Coworker I WON´T GIVE UP!

I JUST WISH THIS COULD HELP SOMEONE... AS I TOLD U: THERE MUST BE SOME POSITIVE STUFF FROM ALL THIS SHIT I´M LIVING THROUGH!

I LOVE YA! STAY TUNED........... and REINVENT YOURSELVES

IAN.